sippin' on a warm budwei-SER
I mean a little but it was this other blog; I was googling to see why I told my coworker that I “don’t believe” in alpha males. and I was 100% right, but the blog I was reading was too intense

also like, don’t worry about what you reblog, telling people about abusers is important. and I’m whiny and perennially disaffected but dealing with triggers is my own shit (and trigger warnings basically never help me, so). thanks though.

I mean a little but it was this other blog; I was googling to see why I told my coworker that I “don’t believe” in alpha males. and I was 100% right, but the blog I was reading was too intense

also like, don’t worry about what you reblog, telling people about abusers is important. and I’m whiny and perennially disaffected but dealing with triggers is my own shit (and trigger warnings basically never help me, so). thanks though.

Everything is TOO MUCH 

I was like “oh this looks like a feminist blog I’m not familiar with” and it was like, rape this, rape that, and I was like “hahahaha omg nope, can’t go there in my current state or ever, goodbye” 

oh but also I could for real identify with how fucking scared that dog looked and how ready he was to absolutely fuck up anyone who touched him

a young, bearded man brought a funny-looking dog to the farmer’s market today. my coworker quipped to me, “dear man, please do not be alarmed, there is a wolf following you” because like, the dog looked like a wolf and it looked really scared

we saw him and his dog later, talking to one of the vendors, and I went over to ask her about it, and she was like, “yeah, he said it’s half wolf. only six months old, alpha male, and of course you can’t pet it” 

and then they came back to the market AGAIN right before we closed up! and came into our crowded stand. and the dog still looked completely TERRIFIED! like I don’t know anything about dogs and I knew it looked scared. and like what are you doing with a half-wolf dog? where are you living that they let you have a pet like that? you describe your dog as an “alpha male”?? whoops my eyeballs are rolling all over the street 

cosimabauhaus:

filed under: HOLY FUCKING SHIT
this is so refreshing to hear from a public figure, let alone a 37 year old amab male-presenting celebrity; there is such a difference between the way our generation and gerard’s own approach perceptions/conceptions of gender and it is so unbelievably nice to have him validate and empathise with those questioning their gender identity in this way

cosimabauhaus:

filed under: HOLY FUCKING SHIT

this is so refreshing to hear from a public figure, let alone a 37 year old amab male-presenting celebrity; there is such a difference between the way our generation and gerard’s own approach perceptions/conceptions of gender and it is so unbelievably nice to have him validate and empathise with those questioning their gender identity in this way

npr:

Imagine if you could see the pen Beethoven used to write his Symphony No. 5. Or the chisel Michelangelo used to sculpt his David. Art lovers find endless fascination in the materials of artists — a pen, a brush, even a rag can become sacred objects, humanizing a work of art.

And now, at Washington, D.C.’s National Gallery of Art, visitors can see some of the materials that impressionist Mary Cassatt once used — three well-loved, large wooden boxes of pastels from distinguished Paris art supply stores. Each box is filled with stubby pieces of pastels, some worn down to half an inch, others almost untouched.

Now That’s An Artifact: See Mary Cassatt’s Pastels At The National Gallery

Photo credit: National Gallery of Art

usually the affirmation “and I’m safe now” really resonates with me and makes me feel better

but this time, it has made me feel kinda worse

why is this? is it because I don’t feel safe with hometown guy? why is that? do his politics creep me out? is that legitimate?

I think that he is safe, and he has repeatedly demonstrated that he can be kind and caring (if perhaps a little dunderheaded, like anyone I spose, lol) even when I tell him “no.” he’s even good about picking up on nonverbal “no”s when we’re making out, in a marked contrast to my abusive ex

so why do I feel so freaked out when I try to tell myself “I’m safe now”? am I not safe?

@novelpremise said: i’m dealing with the same thing in my relationship right now. we go months. i guess normal is relative

yeah. thank you. I guess that’s the other thing I learned in therapy and have at least partially retained… that most of the things anyone ever worries about is pretty commonly experienced by most other people (or at least a lot of them). sorry it’s rough on your end too, hil. 

therumpus:

The Rumblr’s in-house astrologer, Madame Clairevoyant, presents her latest dispatch from the stars:
 Cancer: There are so many things you don’t know and so many futures you can’t see, and this might bother you this week, it might scare you, it might get under your skin. It’s going to be a week for uncertainty, and this is not a bad thing. It’s going to be a week for believing what you need to believe, even when there’s no proof, just a feeling in your stomach. It’s going to be a week to walk to the park, to look at the sky, to sit and live and wait and see.
 Leo: You might feel some fire start to burn in your blood again this week, you might start to feel some new energy taking hold of you, you might start to feel like you’re finally in motion again, like the world is new. You might feel moved to quit your job, to drive across the country, to change your name, and even if you can’t do these things, it’s okay to daydream all day long. There is motion in your dreams, there is motion in your words, there is so much world for you. There’s so much you can do.
 Scorpio: This is a week for spending time with people you love, with people who make your eyes sparkle, with people who make you generous and kind. This is a week just for being with the people you love, even if it sounds too simple, even if it sounds like it could not be enough. You can let your thoughts slow down just a little, this week. You can let your muscles relax. You can spend your days with people who bring out the self that you like best, and for now that can be enough.
Today’s image was made specially for Madame Clairevoyant by Jen May.

therumpus:

The Rumblr’s in-house astrologer, Madame Clairevoyant, presents her latest dispatch from the stars:

Cancer: There are so many things you don’t know and so many futures you can’t see, and this might bother you this week, it might scare you, it might get under your skin. It’s going to be a week for uncertainty, and this is not a bad thing. It’s going to be a week for believing what you need to believe, even when there’s no proof, just a feeling in your stomach. It’s going to be a week to walk to the park, to look at the sky, to sit and live and wait and see.

Leo: You might feel some fire start to burn in your blood again this week, you might start to feel some new energy taking hold of you, you might start to feel like you’re finally in motion again, like the world is new. You might feel moved to quit your job, to drive across the country, to change your name, and even if you can’t do these things, it’s okay to daydream all day long. There is motion in your dreams, there is motion in your words, there is so much world for you. There’s so much you can do.

Scorpio: This is a week for spending time with people you love, with people who make your eyes sparkle, with people who make you generous and kind. This is a week just for being with the people you love, even if it sounds too simple, even if it sounds like it could not be enough. You can let your thoughts slow down just a little, this week. You can let your muscles relax. You can spend your days with people who bring out the self that you like best, and for now that can be enough.

Today’s image was made specially for Madame Clairevoyant by Jen May.

stunningpicture:

Me (located in Iceland) and my friend (located in New Zealand) made the biggest sandwich of all time.

stunningpicture:

Me (located in Iceland) and my friend (located in New Zealand) made the biggest sandwich of all time.